haih

kalau nak tgk tangung lah sendiri nisha.-.-

dah apahallllll la kan dgn kau ni. mcm org gile.

haihhhhhhhh

yg annoyed.

xoxo

ah,yes im 19 already world.

assalam. today is 20th of june. and yes happy birthday to me.

life is no fairy tale. u grow. thre is no fantasy wonderland that you could live happily ever after.life is life.

im getting old. my parents getting old. im moving on.

and lets not talk about present. im 19 right? i dont belong to the present for the birthday girl list anymore.

but if possible why not?HHA

the best part of being 19 is, u can get married in the just next few years.harhar well its not really that.

it just getting old is compulsory.growing up is an option. so then you choose lah.

 when you get older, u will come to realization what is life. u will hope less. because you will know hope will just like increase the possibilities of getting hurt. and instead of that u think.what SHOULD happen. not what u WANT to happen. for me happiness is not about getting what you doesnt have but instead of recognizing what you already have.

so thanks ma, abah, kak ija, abang ngah,aziah,friends, bestfriends, people. and you ofcourse you syg.

for ever being here besides me.

for the every moment we have i  shall cheerish.:')

its not easy being me. sometimes i get emotional. i overrcted over something sooo simple. i thing critically on somthing that i shouldnt. i apologize.

the best part of this year is im gonna be a first year medical student this july.2nd of july.idk. i should be proud or afraid of the coming future life. im proud for my family. but dah tak lama la cuti.tsk 

ish come on la nsha come on.semanagt.ambition.:)

click to enlarge.:D

     and yeeess.pray for me okay peeps. thanks! later.

         xoxo.

dear love.

dear love,

when i tell you i loves you, heck yes, i mean it will all my hearts. i'll stay loyal and and even in silence i'm hurting. i'll stay patient. but how long i can hold on my tears and a wounded hearts? please hear this. be happy for a girls who cries for you and cares for you, even the least. because when she's silent and the tears stop flowing every time you hurt her,that's when her heart damaged beyond repair. and you've just lost someone who'd do your good not just the near future.for eternitty.

i think this is a very well said phrases.

i cried for you as long as i care. when i stop doing that, u should know what does it mean.

later poeple.

this is about me.

oh hello.assalamualaikum people.

today is 15 june, already a month of a holidays. many things happen. and yeah, no need to mention the whole story.someone will get bored over that.

just im being grateful that my sister is now healthy enough to live her daily life after going through the hard time.yeah, we all going through the hard time, because we are family.and  family supports each other.

and taking care of an-after-operation patient is not that easy. -.- pheww. stress me up sometimes.seriously.

so because she cannot move so oftenly, i sacrifice my holiday by enjoying myself at home. its not literally alone yeah i know but sometimes u need a break. yess, i need that. and i envy you guyss that could spent your holiday with ease. every people has different oppurtunity.sure but sometimes i dont think it is wrong for me to whining about things. and its hard to always trying to understand others, by always keeping away all  of your feelings.

oh btw, its a lame story but yeah alhamdulillah for my flat result in this 2nd semester. yeah, its goood to have something that you think you cant have.thankyou Allah.:)

later.

XOXO

im bored.

hello there. assalamualaikum. 

okay. hari ni hari khmis means that dah 2mggu aku cuti.

guess what, bosan gila.-.-

kesian kan dekat aku.

haish. tak nak la merepek mcm2 psal nasib bagai bagai.

cuma kenyataan aku bosan tu mmg xboleh diubah, seriously i hope it could be.

setiap hari lepas aku siap siap buat apa yg sepatutnya aku buat supaya tak kena bebel, aku pun mgadaplah pc and online. 

and know what, when you get TOO bored, like ME, u will eventually end up stalking someone profile in fb until about a year history of their status.hell yeah. believe me.-.-

then main game fb which is dlm hidup aku aku mmg xsuka sgt pun main game.

tp takpe lah. dduk lah rumah selagi boleh.haish

btw, td tak tau nk buat apa sgt terrminat nk tgk cerita juvana.so tgk la kat tonton.

haa.jom la tgk ramai2 cerite kat situ.tgk online la.:D

boleh tgk kat sini

cool la jugak.tp ganas.-.- kesian aku tgk. nak mati mati kene pukul. 

aish.tak boleh la tgk keganasan mcm tu. *lembut hati lah konon.hee

okay.tu je la nak cakap.

jmpe lagi lah eh.

p/s: nak tgk movie. nak tgk pirates of the carribean. please please someone teman kan.:'(

xoxo

those moment that i will treasure.

assalam everyone.:)
as you know, 16 may is teachers day. and yeah. i would like to wish all my teacher everyone that had been constantly guide me through out those day. my childish day, my careless day, my fearless day. MRSM PDRM teachers especially. thankyou. and also my best part of my life in kolej mara kuala nerang. u all are awesome. i'll be forever in gratitudes.:')


okay, then 16 hb jugak ade reunion kat maktab.since maktab dgn rumah tu xla jauh sgt i manage to join that. wohoo.:) its cool to see how everyone had grown up that fast. makeup. funky selendang. colourful outfit. hot!pheww. yang boyss mmg dah x jumpe kdai gunting rmbut agaknye,-.- hhha. puas ye dapat simpan rambut panjang2, so dtg tunjuk dkat hep kan?:D yeah, dgn DSLR semua dah pandai amek gmbar cantik cantik. kamera mahal kann. itu sudah semestinya saudara uzair, izzan and afif. saya just mmpu snyum je la dpan kamera anda anda semua.hee the fisrt time kte jumpa, umur 13 thn, semua muka innocent. semua nak mencarut pun xreti lagi. besar sama sama. belajar berikari sama sama. yang penting jalan pegi kelas hari2 yang jauh gilaaaa tu pun sama sama.penat kan?haish
zaman kanak kanak zaman bergembira kan. xkisah la mcm mana pun cara you all bergembira but as long as that what makes u happy. no one say that being a bookworm tu tak enjoyy,skema,bosan. hey, as long as that what makes u happy go on.who cares!


kalau nak cerita byk la jugak life dekat mrsm tu.obviously im not the type yg enjoy jadi student by abide all the rule.tehee. tp i x kecewa sbb atleast i ade experience tu. experience ape? har har ponteng prep constantly yes.kalau pegi lambat tu boleh kira dgn jari yg pegi awal sbb lambat selalu sgt. then selalu gilaaa pergi makan kat belakang asrama*kedai makan yg pakcik makcik polis bukak which is FORBIDDEN for us. just because bnde tu lagi sedap dr ds kot.hha tipu ckgu yg ehem i mean tak la dsyat cuma tipu outing je. fly errr penah la jugak bila dah tua sikit and dah pandai plan itu ini.hha budak budak pulak mcm2, yang kawan ada yang lawan pun ada. bergaduh,menagis,baik,kawan,tikam belakang, berebut,dengki,baik balik,semua ada. tpi kami semua kawan. i x bngga i cuma feel lucky to be able to experince it. and alhamdullilah i still able to be right on this level. :) experinece is the best teacher.

a few moment captured by them.

cikgu cikgu sains saya.chem bio and physics.

ohh. mcm2 fesyen kan.saya selesa berbaju kurung.:)

ustaz shuzaini.:')

mereka mereka,:)

makan ds.gila x malu.-.-

happy sngatt.

happy happy. because i didnt realise how much i miss my school time  until i step back there on that very moment. its reallyy good to be once as a student.:)

will update more on my sleepover.19 years old sleepover.:DD

later,

p/s: a day never pass without im thiking of you.seriously.imissyousomuch :')

xoxo.

goodnight,

:')

oh hye semua. assalamualaikum. 

yeay.its finally end. kuala nerang akan sentiasa di hati.<3 really glad i could mke through the journey.

i enjoy being part of the community of kolej mara kuala nerang. the teachers. 

and friend. bik,neera,yati,salia,kz,jabb and yusra.and everybody. thankyou for everything we share.

and of course you.aliff abdulah. glad that our path cross. glad to be part of your life.:')

mereka mereka.yang hebat belaka.

kami yang tak kurang hebatnya.:D

spatutnye update la right after smpai rumah kan? baru berkobar2 sikit. tp haihh, nak buat mcm mana

blogspot buat hal kan haritu.*alasan.

jealousnye tgk org lain punye blog dah renovate cntik2. aku malas. mmg la padan muka blog buruk.grr

nnty la.tnggu mood.hha

eh.esok saya nk pegi maktab saya. smbut hari guru. seronok. dah lama rasa tak sekolah. awww. rindu.:)

p/s: how hard is it to tell yourself you cant have something that you realllly want because you just cant. hard is it? i know it.:'(

later.

xoxo

semakin hari semakin pelik pelik.

ni aku bukan cakap pasal orang lain. ni cakap psal diri sendiri. 

jangan nak salahkan org lain sgt la, sendiri pnye problem kan. ni sbb study mcm apa lagi. pastu tension pastu qeja nak tak puas hati kat org lain. haiii, bila la nak habes exam ni. mase boleh berlalu cepat sikit tak?

jeles tgk org lain dah cuti. hati sabar ye.

pastu, bila dah gelabah nak exam ni mula la keluar perangai pelik2. 

sbg contoh : suruh orang duduk jangan bangun. pastu org tu bgun jugak. pastu bebaiii sbb org tu bgun tak ikut cakap aku suruh duduk.keling kan?-.- 

akibat bersikap pelik adalah : 1st skali kulit muka telah mendapat effectnye. betul la emosi mempengaruhi kulit. so kawan2 kalau nk kulit cantik2 jangan nak asyik caripasal je dgn org lain yee.:)

2nd, bila balik, aku akan rasamcm nk ketuk kepala sendiri sbb menjadi sgt annoying dan myusahkan hdup org lain sebentar tadi,

so skrg msty semua org xnak kawan aku dah kan sbb pergai aku buruk.-.-

btw, interview dah lepas. and alhamdulillah. MCAT pun dah. 

and final is coming. doakan saya kawan2.:)

and tadi. thankyou for the visit. chepa and tabe. walaupun dalam hutan and cuma ada myfc, korang dtg jgk kan tgk aku.sobss. terharu aku.:D

p/s: and yes. sorry sbb annyoying gilaa tadi. i guess jadi annoying always make me feel better.heh just bear with it okay? at least before im reaching my twentieth year.thankyou.ily.

semakin hari semakin perasan.hha

tnggu saya balik okay.

later.

xoxo.